Life was lived tightly guarded.
Outer Me was shy person blending into the background not making waves.
Inner Me was the questioning observer of all I was invisible to. The fly on the wall.
Very few were allowed in, and fewer close.
Times where I took a chance and stood out were usually met with embarrassment or being thrown under the bus.
Why trust anyone but myself if singed or scorched was the end result.
Outer world grew smaller while inner world was dying to get out.
Then my whole view turned upside down and slid sideways upon reading these words:
So the highest level of trust is not having to trust. … And when we don’t have to trust God [or anyone or anything], then we actually can. Because trust means not having to have a particular result, but rather knowing that whatever results is for the highest good.
from “Friendship With God”
Trust exists most when we don’t need to?
Wasn’t trust all about protecting one’s self, covering your back, and reducing the threat of vulnerability?
The tiniest exposure of Inner Me could feel full out buck naked.
But turn that around and something new emerges.
The very core of trust is the need to regain Inner Power given away.
Too obviously silly from a step back.
But the game existed. And we played.
Not needing to trust dissolves separation. Us-Them is not in opposition.
Without opposition, vulnerability abates.
Vulnerability lessened opens to sameness.
Sameness means we’re all on the same side.
When we’re all on the same side, there’s no need for trust.
Not needing to trust creates the freedom to be who you are.
Being who you are is what was desired all along –
only now in the freedom and expression of all that you are
No risks, no controls, no games or strings attached.
Allowing who you are within to flow full out is the greatest expression, and receipt of trust for all.
Now when the need to trust starts surfacing, the question asked has shifted from “who can I trust?” to “who am I being?”
The answer is inevitably a variation of “less than who I am.”
A signal to step back and scan for the source of my lack.
A new exploration unfolds as to what I am really trying to tell myself.
Wrong path, lack of confidence, or perhaps the next deeper reveal of me.
Trust because you don’t have to.
Right there is a source of the freedom we seek.
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chief nudging officer
Crazy for cats and potatoes, Lorraine's insatiable curiosity of Life leads her to question, explore and push beyond the box. A self-professed "left-brained creative big picture" type, she has an intuitive knack for seeing beyond and beneath first appearances while at the same time nerding out on the details. Most of all she sees and holds others in their highest until they can see it for themselves.